ive come to the point where idk im just there im finally thinking about all my faults and all my regrets and all my fears and all my realizations and im astounded to how calm i seem when so much is boiling and reaching its end im at a point where i ddont even know anymore im just there im reaching a limit of anguish and rage that i just want to decide yes or no i want to chose whether its worth keeping or worth hiding away and forgetting idk anymore im allmost done